Frust.

Tadi ak da try tulis entri yg menggambarkan ape yg ak rase. P bile ak bc semula......mcm haram je. mcm haram je jd ak da delete.

I wrote this entry instead.

Frust giler. Bile ko tggu bagai utk pakwe sndri call. But hey wait! xde pon. Since his birthday lak tu. Yg da sah2 la dpt free call ye dak?n its for a week la kemon.

Siyesshit frust ah citer dye. Ak nk cite pon xtau la cne nk citer. Ak bole tulis kat sini je. So i wont feel absurd or to tense bout the whole matter. it really does affect la. Siyes. 

Geram.

Benci.

Menyampah.

Ase nk tumbuk je kau!

Ko bz sgt an kje?Ko da xde mase sgt an?fine.fine.fine lah xda hal weh. Ak ni nsb bek bukn jenis ppuan yg cling to men je la. nsb bek. lau x mmpos ah ak porak peranda kan kehidupan ko la @##*&&^tuuttttt!!! 

hahhhh..puas ati ak.

Siyes ak ase frust je stp hari. Ak kena nangis. So that ak lega. P tahla recently ak xbley nangis. mnela ak tau.

Penat camni. 

Kau tahu?

Tahu ke kau?

Kau tahu yet do u care less bout that?

----Ak xde pasaan ke?Am i not sb's precious?

Just how would i bear this situation with mix negative feelings inside idk

Saturday..and a precious call..

Salam..Hi..

Its saturday again..dan utk kesekian kalinya..hari terpenting ak..almost half a year now..knape?knape sabtu?ape yg pnting sgt??

Sbb pada hari sabtu la ak akan dpt panggilan telefon yg ak tggu2 sgt..panggilan telefon dari boyfie ak..klaka?mcm xbest an?xpelah..ak pun bukn cantik mne pon..tp yg penting ak thu ak da ade cinta sejati ak..cinta insaniah ak..ade sdkit limitations utk kitorg..n now sort of having long distance relationship..no calls,no messages except the one phone call on saturday..itupun maybe around 10-15 min time..

Tapi hari ni holiday..independence day Malaysia yg ke 56..ak da celebrate da smlm..wakaka..ngan memeber ak..g nengok 'The Conjuring'..kahkah..n when its holiday..emm..maybe theres no phone call kot..xpelah..nk wat guane..tgok jam pun da pkul 5.50pm da tu..positive la gitu..

kdg2..ak terpk..hidop cmni..ade relationship cmni..mcm xde pakwe je..p ak pk blk..I am the one who willing to bear with this aite?so hadap je la..nk wat guane ag..nk lawan takdir??hah??berani kau??kahkah(ok merepek~)

T kat entries akan datg ak citer pasal 'The Conjuring' movie yg ak tgok tu ek..skrg ni cm sedih ckit..type entri ni pon sambil donga my favourite of all time, 'Another You' by cromok

Oklah..babai for now~
Abg..mish u~

Mimpi ngeri+sedih

Salam..

Smlm dlm group whatsapp reunion dak skola rendah..ade seorg kwn ak post 1 gmbo excident..punyela ngeri smpai penunggang motorsikal tuh(ppuan) putus 2 bdn dye..eiiii...ak ni da la pntang tgok gmbo gitu..ishhh..Astaghfirullahalazimm..huhhh..slalunye lau ak ttgok gmbo ngeri gitu..mesti ak termimpi yg bukn2..dlm erti kaata laen..yg mengerikan laaa..fuuffufuf

So..as expected..i did dream bout an excident..scary yet sad..dlm mimpi ak tu..ak n semuaaa family ak otw xtau la ke mana..we r in sort of a lorry..mcm lorry ice tu besonye..p raaaamai org dlm lori tu..termasokla family ak...tetiba..nga jln tu..lorry kitorg nih nk daki satu jalan yg mmg gegila punye curam..dye punya curam tu, smpai almost 90 degree la jgk..pergggghhh...

Dri mimpi ak tu..ak nmpk..ade satu lorry lg beso da tersangkut kat jln tu..xbley naek..p driver lorry kami ngan confidentnye daki curam tu melalui jln sebelah lorry tu..so korg taula knn..mestilah xlepas..dan bile xlpas tu..lorry kami tergolek2 jatuh..kebetulannya yg ak igt..ak kat side blkaaaang lori tuh..mse tergolek2 tuh..pintu blkg lori mcm tbukak ckit..n ak n adik ak dpt tergolek2 kuar selamtkan diri..

P the saddest part is..xde sorang pon yg terselamat dlm lorry tuh..ak mngis jerit2 pggil mak ak..bile keadaan agak reda..ak bukak pintu lorry tu..dgn hrpn dorg cme cedera2 n still hidop agi..p ak cme nmpk org2 yg da xbergerak yet mata terbuka gitu..pffff..gile kentang ak nye mimpi..p part ak nges pggil mk tu sedih..mk..kakak syg mk sgt9..wlopon kakak nakal..huhu

Dah..tu je kot..papai

*Kabornye nk tgok the conjuring sok~sigh~

Post baru~

Salam..

Waahhh~da setahun xpost ape2 pon kat blog nih..sbb uamanya sbenanye ialah da lupe lgsung tntg blog nih..hihihihi

Format nk post entry ni pon da laen..huhu..yelahh lebey setahun xjenguk dashboard..ape lg tulis entry utk blog..hmmmhh..mmg x..xde ape sgt pon nk cite..len kali asenye nk wujudkan satu lg part dlm blog iaitu my diary..yelah..since i read my own writing..xsalah asenye ade part entitle my diary nih..sekurg2nya bole buat terapi minda utk tenangkan hati sndri..di samping kite berdoa, mengadu pada sang pencipta, Allah Azza wajalla,ape salahnye klau kite tulis sesuatu mengenai dri sndiri..mana thu, esok2 boleh baca dgn pasangan msing2..hehe

Hari ni ak share satu quotation yg ak suke:

to be old and wise, you must first have to be young and stupid

asenye setakat ni tu dlu lah..babai

*part=labels..hihi